Philippians 4:6

Soooo this has been a rough two months and this blog is combining both months together.  I wasn’t able to blog last month because I didn’t want to raise alarm with coworkers or family until I had made an ultimate decision.

Last month, I had an interview for a full time teaching position.  I had gone over to my parents’ house to prepare when I had a freak out moment.  I literally sobbed for what seemed like hours.  There was something inside of me that was not passionate about it.  However, I had a grown up moment and decided that I needed to interview….1) for the experience and 2) because my principal, whom I respect greatly, had put my name in the pool of people to be interviewed.  I HAD to do the interview.  I didn’t end up getting a job offer, which I what I went in expecting so I wasn’t defeated.  I wasn’t going to be a full time teacher but I still had my math position.

This month, however, as school got closer, I wasn’t feeling at peace with taking the math position.  It’s not that anything went wrong last year.  Please don’t take it that way.  This decision was so difficult for me because my principal and coworkers have been nothing but supportive.   Unfortunately I ran out of time and today, I made the choice to take a step back.  Again, my principal was more than supportive about my choice.  In addition to taking a step back this month, I also made the decision to go back to school.  Starting next Monday, I will be taking classes two nights a week for accounting.  

Like I said at the beginning of this blog, these past two months have been rough.  There have many tears and fights and doubts.  I have contemplated and prayed and finally surrendered everything over to God.  I asked him to give me a peace about leaving my job and he has.  That doesn’t mean my stomach isn’t turning and thoughts of, “Are you stupid?” aren’t running through my mind but I have to have faith that God will be my provision.  Philipians 4:6 says, "Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything by prayer and supplication with thanksgiving let your requests be made known to God."  He knows where my heart has been and is now.  I am sure a job is not going to fall in my lap and it may not be my dream job, but I am trusting in His timing and promise.

And that is where you come in!  I need a job!  I know there was the option of moving back in with my parents….they have been clear about that…but I would obviously love to stay where I am at.  If there are any jobs you can refer me to, that would be awesome!  I am searching on my own but these days, it’s all about who you know.  I know that at least a few people read my blog so I am reaching out to you and asking for your connections.  If you don’t have any, then I am asking for your prayers.  

I will keep you all updated on the new adventures of life.  I am sure I will have to do some venting when school starts.  I can’t believe that after six years, I am going back to school.  Books have been bought and I have found my classroom.  All that’s left is getting the first day jitters over and done with!  Here’s to the next few months and the next two years (for the accounting program)!